Ticket

When the recession smell is a little overwhelming..
When the office air is a little too tense..
When the global warming makes you staying at home..
When the government doesnt issue you a visa..
When you are missing your lover beilliie muchiie..
When you don't know what to do...

maybe, just take your ticket... and enjoy the show...

sometimes.. not all the time..

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I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

Slow it down
make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
to be something I'm not

I'm a fool
out of love
'cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
and synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah
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The Show- Lenka

A very cute song
with a cute tone
a cute mood, facing what you dont know how to deal with
a cute picture illustrated from the cute lyric
from a cute heart

Things appear cute and decent when your heart is taking it cutely, i believe.

Hairstyle 髪

最近有人问了我一个挺有趣的问题。我喜欢女生长发，还是短发？
如果有看平面漫画的人，应该可以发觉，漫画里角色的发型都是不变的。现实中，人可是会变的。
我想了想，还是做点功夫。[点击小图看大图] 先用孙燕姿的造型图看看极短的发型。从我认为极限的长度说起。很有个性吧。

接下来，我选择了韩女星---李妍喜。比我年轻，却可以百变。她丰富的造型可塑性展示了长短发都有其美，能撑起不同的场面。

回想起来，以前喜欢或欣赏的女生，似乎都是短发的。可爱。活泼。所以，我喜欢的，应该是短发。再想一想，以前中学时期女生都不能留长发嘛。所以这么说似乎不对。现在觉得，短发会将一些人的五官衬托地更特出。看起来变得很有性格。

中学生涯结束后，许多女生似乎都留了长发。许多人变了很多，变美了，有韵味了。温柔。优雅。所以，我喜欢的，应该是长发。。。也不对。因为也有些人其实让长发给掩去了原来脸部好看的特征而不知觉。或让自己为了保留长发，而失去了尝试，为自己设了一个框。

而做这功课的同时，我突然发现，我很爱女生绑发。不同的绑法造型增添了可塑性，让女生呈现更百变的美。爱美，原是女生天赋的权利。我喜欢女生绑发。。或许是因为自己的审美及偏好。因为绑发，露出女生的耳垂。所以如果我有另一半，或许是很自然地。。。我会想轻言密语。轻轻地吻。远看像是咬耳吧。因为绑发，有时露出女生的后颈。我会想从后环抱，轻轻地亲。

电影《功夫》里黄圣依造型虽然留着长发，许多幕都显示她将发丝梳理在耳后。试比一比，原来[左]与加工后[右]的剧照。个人还是喜欢露耳垂的。

哪。。我是喜欢绑发啦？因为可以让我亲亲嘛？想一想，又好象不全对。因为如果没绑发，轻佻的风如果拨乱了她的头发，我会很自然地想帮她理一理秀发。我喜欢这样的举动。因为那一刻的她，是会有让人窒息的美。将她的头发摆弄好，还是会亲下去。

李妍喜多种造型我都看得赏心悦目。因为我喜欢她。
所以，绑发与不，长发与不，伊人依然，美。
原来，只要我喜欢伊，伊人就是美。伊真的很美嘛。
所以我要深呼吸。因为美会很窒息。

嗯。。嗯。。所以，长短发应该是非常个人的决定，表现自己的品味。发型更可以代表个人的性格。而，不同的尝试变化，也能带出新鲜感。我有时喜欢人家给我雪前一亮的新鲜感。或许因为生活很多时候是周而复始。而尝试的过程中，我们发觉原来有些东西并不适合自己。但因为尝试，我们其实在找寻，所以发现。

发现自己。

[Coincidentally, Shravasti Dhammika has posted a blog regarding Hair lately. Something very different to mine, but i believe there is a little similarity as reflection-- it's not about the hair but the persons.]

The Late Compliments

Van Gogh_ The Starry Night

A conversation has led me to think of the compliments that come late.

Van Gogh
A Post-impressionism artist that i like very much. I may not know him and his works very well. But i truly like his paintings, especially The Starry Night. His paintings has a very delicate kind of emotion nourishing the atmosphere even on the side of the viewers. I say, he paints beyond his paper. I personally think he is a romantic artist. Not only they are just simply petrifying for me to look at, his works draw the wings of imagination on me. I know i fly to the moment in his paintings. I admire him. If there is a chance for me to see his exhibition, i would love to go for it. If there is an event bringing the effort to collect his works together for exhibition station by station globally, i would like to contribute with even the slightest possible effort.
He died at the age of 37, due to depression.

Heath Ledger
An impressive actor that i think he has done well for the roles he took. I am not his super fans. Nor have i watched all the movies he had taken part in. But he definitely has done extremely well for the character of Joker in the movie-- The Dark Knight. Weeks ago, there were still controversial debates that, on behalf of him, who is qualified to receive the Prize from 2008 Academy Award and Golden Globe Awards. It is respectful how he has deeply dissolved into a role and from within he created a character that stands out.
He died at the age of 28, due to medication abuse, that many believed depression was the main cause.

The compliments to the above mentioned are late.
Gogh's paintings have got famous after his death. Ledger's movies have gained breaking records after his death too. Both of their talents and contributions have been largely recognized and acknowledged. Having said that.. they wouldn't know.
The late compliments thus become very sentimental.

Shall we pay our salute.
And, shall we look into the issue of depression, more closely, and more concernedly.

It seems like geniuses tend to have depression more likely, though i hope this is just a coincidence. Besides, i have family members who are suffering depression and i know the pain to some extents. It drives people to nuts of how helpless it could be at times. My aunt used to tell me to be living more happily, taking less priority on achievements. She was worried i tend to be using too much brain and also following steps into depression. Now, i would like to stand with people around, and live a good life. I have met someone that embraces so much positiveness so spontaneously. I am encouraged. We all should know, the more positive you stay, the more positive the people around will be influenced by you. Happiness is highly contagious, so is melancholy. You are to decide which side of hand you are lending to. And, be grateful to have friends and family who cheer you up, who concern about you. Life is great!

p/s: i love you.

钱不够用

看了新加坡电影《钱不够用II》。看到关于妈妈的片段，很感动。我哭了。是的，是哭泣。让我掉眼泪的电影不多。让我哭得抽噎的电影更不多。电影里画面拍摄极其平凡。用了最简单直接的方式表达了大众的生活。最直接的感动。最见效。也反映了许多大部分人的生活，现实的残酷。很教育性。戏里虽然有一些并不需要的电脑元素和赞助味道，但无伤大雅，没有影响大纲。

电影导演梁智强展示了一贯作风，这次传达了精神层次更多的理念。值得一提的是演老妈妈角色的马来西亚演员--黎明。小时候就看多她演的戏了。这次的她，演活了mother的角色，牵动了观众的心。让我因为她掉了许多眼泪。有一幕她回头望的时候，我的心被紧紧地楸着。。。 另外，自己喜欢戏里的赖怡伶，很漂亮动人，有着我见犹怜的气质，愿意为爱和家牺牲的小女人。如果有妻如此，何需他求。妳的手，我会牵紧紧。（嗯。。本人善于被感动+幻想。。牌写。。）

钱不够用，是极度烦恼的。比没钱更穷的时候，是更可悲的。穷了心志。穷了灵魂。穷了道德。成了彻底的穷鬼，是让人伤心的。《艺妓》里说了一句话：“有钱的并非最富裕，情才是福”


电影里用了歌曲-- 江蕙 《家后》 (Internet Explorer / Safari is needed)
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我就要开始收拾清理了，然后搬家，然后再收拾清理。会有一段忙的日子。最想要的房子拿不到。或许冥冥中自有安排。有不甘愿命运如斯，却也安然接纳。因为我也尽力了。觉得钱不够用。也努力着。只要一直有尽心尽力做好自己，就有继续加油走下去的力量。

Mates. Let's move on. Hand in hand. ^_^
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“钱不够用2″mother入围金马奖

点击这里看一些电影简介和更多观众给予感动后的评语。我没在这里多讲，因为或许还有一些人还没看却想看的。

爱未知 M

《爱未知M》

韩国电影《爱未知M》 。看。是因为她。李妍喜。她有参与演出。是从我巨爱的电影《百万富翁的初恋》喜欢她而接着期待她后来的任何演出。所以看这《M》。是一部毫不偏向大众口味的惊悚电影。不太是鬼片。是爱情和记忆的追溯和追述画面。是艺术片。是美术的剪贴。有褒有贬。据说影片名称“M”是“Mystery（神秘）、Memory（记忆）、Mist （薄雾）和 Melo（爱情）”几个词的合体。

主角因事故而回避了世故，压抑了回忆，失去了，忘了，迷惑了，重遇了，追溯了，追随了。。。
看这《M》。才认识了这导演。李明世。无可非议的，他的拍摄中对光影的掌握已达到炉火纯青的境界。光和影是互补的元素，是画面的灵魂。喜欢美术的人，可以看一看。对戏里唯美的画面确实有惊叹的欣赏。导演用独到的画面承接启后手法，来叙述委婉扭转的故事。戏里看到了导演的自我风格与其理想的坚持。不沦落在跟世俗商业化的潮流。看到了一些不错的意境和自身记忆的潜探。这导演的一些拍摄也有一点王家卫的影子。有每每重复但细细差异的画面。个人觉得，他拍摄镜头的美术感高很多。但王家卫的故事比较栩栩流畅。只能说，李明世或许不是个会讲故事的人，是个画家。就好象，有些天才不会教人；有些好教师不是天才。

或许是导演的坚持，这电影似乎也太着重于画面形式。可以说，戏里画面的视觉转接极度流畅，内容却在画面承接中断断续续流失了原本足以感动观众的故事灵魂。所以造成可惜和遗憾。也或许在没有意识下，导演的拍摄作风坚持下，对演员的演出造成了局限性。浪费了原本可以演绎很好的演员。李妍喜虽然年轻，表现还有些嫩，但却有着细腻的投入演绎，多方面的角色性和丰富表情。她处女作《百万富翁的初恋》的导演就是慧眼发掘而将她的潜质发挥得淋漓尽致。虽然那电影剧情简单，却是有欢笑有泪水的必看小品。

《百万富翁的初恋》

如果将《爱未知 M》待为一个艺术展或一本像簿，简单地，在意境，诗意，梦幻，回忆，节奏，灵魂的影像画面中，欣赏，摸索，品味，重组，剪接和合奏，确实是个不错的体会。

对我而言，《M》也似乎隐喻了《Me》--我。自我。自我的寻找。自我的发掘。自我的风格。自我。却不过甚的自我。自我的拿捏。我。[me]。[kai]。

依悉记得，有人说过：人生，其实是死亡的开始。换句话说，人生的过程，就是怎样死去。其实，死，或轻于鸿毛，或重于泰山。过程中，在于怎么实实在在地充实自己，让自己走过的步伐翩出美丽的地图。我的人生中，还在寻找着我的舞台。我或许偶尔很自我。但我有时感觉体内有一股时静时劲的色彩，欲在空虚的天空中，找到合适的舞台，画下缤纷的彩虹。

茫茫人海里，爱未知。人生里，有不少时候也过得很混/浑/昏。今年来，事事似乎都不太如意。工作上，也还没有真正找到感觉，时常有不甘愿于斯的感觉。看来是要经过一番失意挫败的。所以，人生里，我还要加把劲。
“天降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行指乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。”
这句话真好。真好引。叹气完了，就要振作振作振作！！！
（不好意思，抄来自勉了 ^0^）

Bruce|| "Why do we fall"
Alfred|| "So that we learn to pick ourselves up"
Bruce|| "You still haven't given up on me"
Alfred|| "Never"
(The movie_ Batman Begins)
(嗯。。 来而不往，非理也。 ^_^）