Earth Hour and beyond

At the night of Earth Hour
light was switched off
the darkness descended
she was dressing up that night

though her name is darkness
and she has been always invisible
but at that very special night
she dressed up so elegantly
or people did for her
regardless
people were witnessing her charm
she stood out
in front of everyone
in the heat of celebration

but

this is actually more than meeting the eyes

*At the night, people turned off the light for an hour. They celebrate it with many ideas. Some drove to mountain to see the night city skyline morphing from luminosity to dullness. Maybe petrol was used more than needed. CO2 was emitted more than usual. And within the hour, the electricity generating factories were still running non-stop. Carbon emission was still enormous. Whatever. Earth Hour is actually not only about switching off light. It is about energy saving, water saving etc. From individual micro scale accumulating up to macro generality. Use less. Reduce demand. Thus stop expanding power generation plants. Reduce our environmental footprint. *

Celebration of the day
with no doubt
became the fastest way to promote the idea
to call for awareness
darkness became a celebrity all of a sudden
people got together for the celebration
some forgot the pure intention
some got to do something even more energy wasting

Earth Hour
a campaign was supposed to evoke sense of responsibility and awareness
how we should keep energy saving on the right track
to the very effort we can do
for the sake of our future
our kids' future

energy saving
is the essence to be listed in to-do for everyday life

sustainable living
is the way to go
and
all these
should be done as a routine with fun

celebrating Earth Hour with fun is a good thing
not forgetting what we should be doing everyday

having fun while doing good
is the ideal
without compromising too much of daily lifestyle awfully

and hopefully sooner
Earth Hour does not need to be celebrated in extravagant ways
if everyone celebrate by saving energy everyday

it will just need to be a remembrance in the future

^__^

关于死

关于死

总有一种禁忌，保持着一种距离，不看太多，不想太多。
想是，人开始长大。肩担渐增。才开始会稍微想一想。因为，不想做个不负责任的人。
人开始老了，或许才会事先考虑清楚，更或许一些会事先办理准备。
而我，还只是在想一想的阶段。

如果死，我会希望我对亲爱的家人朋友有所交代。
最亲的人，不想他们伤心太久，要快快收拾好心情，过充实的日子，寻找人生更多的精彩。因为，我觉得世界还有太多太多神奇奥妙精彩处，我没法发觉体会，会希望至亲的人会能体会到。而我在他们的脑海记忆里，他们的心里，一起感受到。我们并不孤独。

如果死，我有点希望我死的当天或第二天就下葬。华人有死后至少三天才有葬礼的习俗，我没有深入了解。因为始终保持着一种距离。我想，那是因为华人孝顺尊重长辈，对死者还依依不舍，还想瞻仰。像是，真正‘临走’（到投胎或九泉之下之类的地方）前，与家人亲友在作最后相聚。对我来说，那是一种很深的悲伤。我或许承受不了。

所以，活在当下。要活得精彩，要珍惜彼此。死后，你我他都没有遗憾。彼此祝福在不同的道路上，一路走好。

如果死，我希望越早下葬越好。因为，我曾经梦见，我在梦里死了，灵魂出魄壳，看到家人在我身躯边伤心哭泣。我也伤心地跟着哭泣，梦醒时发现我枕头尽是自己的眼泪所湿。一位犹太朋友说过，他相信人死后，要尽快下葬，好让灵魂Spirit到神圣的某处，一种解脱。他说，亲友如此做法，其实是对死者的尊敬爱护。因为，如果死者没有及早下葬，其灵魂会在灰色地带徘徊，找不着其定位身份。有一定的道理和感动。华人的传统相信有多少不同。

其实，有点怕怕的我，加上完美主义的我，也不太希望，死后的我，还会让太多人见到。想让大家记得的，是生前真实的我，欢笑的我。人死后，留下了皮囊，还留下了什么。真正的他，对于亲爱的家人戚友，其实本应留在脑海，活在心里。

真正的精神，是永存的，是一起的，是不死的。或者说，根本就没死与生。

就在当下，加油，精彩过一分一秒！*笑*

一起感受

伊可知道当我昨晚收到越洋祝福的时候

夜空是呈紫蓝
看来似乎像是伊喜欢的颜色
将来的画
请记得尽情地
挥撒伊喜欢的颜色
我们的那幅画
会是灿烂的
家里所以温暖

月亮是很圆很大
我们喜欢的浪漫
却从来没有一起看过
我却知道
将来我们会一起看
年轻的时候
躺在草原上看
年迈的时候
在家的后院看

空中飘着微细的雨
伊喜欢的天气
渺渺的雨
像温柔的纱衣
看着看着
更加肯定
伊是迷路的天使
放心
一路上
我会带伊一起一步步地走
轻快地舞

伊的祝福
我真的收到了
因为我这里看到的天空竟然是
伊喜欢的天空
因伊而美丽的天空
一起飞翔
那风
那空气
那景色
我们一起感受到

我打短短的电话联系
说些生活的琐碎
我看到日偏食
我想 相隔两地看到的 会不一样
我想让伊看见我所看见的
我所以拍了下来
看到一朵白云
我喜欢
想伊也爱白云
所以又拍了下来
我在城里慢步
电车经过发出声音
我也想让伊听到
所以拨电

恋爱
原是无聊的
但是
那无聊可以一起感受
是幸福的
所以感恩

谢谢伊
赐我天使的吻

两小无猜

昨晚看医生。在诊所，等待的时候，看到一对马来友族的小兄妹在嬉戏。不像许多哥哥会玩比较粗鲁暴力的男子气游戏。也让我想起我对妹妹似乎真的不够好，难怪zomo他们不叫我一声‘哥’。哦。。。是了是了，一定是了。汗。。
话说。。。

小哥哥吃力地抱起小妹妹，小小男生似乎觉得抱得起妹妹是莫大的勇气，无穷的力量，帅气的男人。抱了起来，开心地跑。被捧在怀里的妹妹，也呵呵地笑了起来。抱得累了，哥哥放下妹妹。大手捉小手，两人一起开心地跑。跑累了，哥哥的手放在妹妹的肩膀上，妹妹的手放在哥哥的腰上，慢慢地走，依旧呵呵地笑，说着一些我不是很听得懂的孩子气语言。他们俩的一举一动，仿佛像小小的情侣。洋溢的，是纯纯的喜悦。我想起了伊。

走着走着，哥哥的力气恢复了。妹妹笑闹着要抱抱。哥哥又再抱起妹妹，脸上显出微微的骄傲和喜悦，然后奔跑。妹妹轻爽的呵笑声，冲淡了诊所的忧虑气氛，溶化了病容。抱着，跑着，累着，放下。那兄妹重复了好几回同样的把戏。完全没有厌倦。最后，小兄妹都玩得累了。抱着妹妹的哥哥，连人一起跌坐在地上。我有点担心地想趋前。只见，那小兄妹坐在地上，哈哈大笑。我心里笑了起来。我又想起了伊。

是的。喜悦，是自然的，是纯真的，是不会厌倦的。我希望，我和伊，一起欢笑，一起掉泪，一起面对，一起了解，一起拥抱，一起手牵手，一起走我们这非一般的路。

来来。。给我一个高‘5’！！

锁

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我弟发了脾气，我难过了。我爸难过了，我心疼了。妈病了，爸照顾妈。妈病好了，爸照顾弟。我的心被揪得紧紧。
沮丧的时候，我想起了伊。我所以振作起来。

因为伊，我发现了自己，丢掉了自己，让自己重生了。因为伊，我坚强了。

我弟却迷失了自己。

我对他说

你可还记得你以前种种优越的个性，你可还记得你比我勇敢，我比你懦弱。我现在坚强了，你不是应该更坚强吗？
所以，现在你要勇敢面对它，勇敢面对自己。

我相信，凡事，每个人，的好坏，都有。如果可以尽数，是相对平衡的。
我没对你说，人，性本善。我却对你说，好坏充斥，取舍在于一线间，一念之差。当信念持正的时候，人，自然因好而笑。坏，自然因无法作祟而隐去。我们因为坏而认识好，发掘好，珍惜好，发挥好。好坏共存，只要能坦然对待，雨后彩虹后，你会因为好，而对坏感恩。

而你，因为病了，恶魔将坏放大。你忘了自己的好。

所以，你要将自己闭关的锁，给开了。

让你自己，给自己一个机会，找回自己。给大家一个机会，伸出援助。
我伸出的手，不感觉疼酸，只要你会紧紧握住。我会跟你走这大便一般的路。
你将来便会觉得，真正的大便，不过如此。

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先将自己丢掉

看着伊的文字，我从心底笑了出来。
散发着一种自由的气质。
突然发现，伊，有信念，有想法；没有格局，没有形式。
我感觉到伊的心，让人很容易亲近感觉到伊的心。
伊善良，让我看见了伊舒暖宽阔的心境。
伊是如此美丽。

我看着一面镜子。
我，也有信念，有坚持，还有形式。原来，我自己有个框框。
我自己太有一套。

嗯，看来，我得先将自己丢掉。彻底那种。丢掉所有珈琐。
然后放开。
让那自由的心，油然而生。
因为我也想变帅。笑。

重生后，对伊笑着说：
妳有妳的信念
我有我的坚持
这交汇时互放的光彩
没有硝味
因为彼此坚信的
同是自然的感受
坦诚的交流

爱

What is with the Architect?

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Generally, when you hang out with someone who is an architect, do not feel weird that he is always busy looking around. He looks downward into the drainage strips; he looks upward to the ceiling. He uses stupid alien language like authenticity, mezzanine, louvre screen, HVAC [Heating Ventilation and Air Conditioning system], etc. He looks at details, materials, people, buildings, streets, urban corners… totally random they may be. But he may be looking at how people and things proportioning, standing, structuring, connecting, occupying, complimenting, contrasting and intervening each other.

And then, he could just sigh simply for the ridicule failure or the mythical astonishment of how things join, how brilliant talents of some designers endowed, and how shallow himself is. Basically, his eyes are just too keen.

And also, he insists to let something of the background in or out from the photos taken by his camera. He tries to make sure the background and foreground figures fit well into the frame. He tries to capture emotions and light. But he is as not professional as photographer. He is just happy doing that. At times, he is lazy or just snap shots on you with free styles. Because you are good enough to be in his pictures.

And so, you do not need to feel awkward, when he pauses and looks at you. Sometimes he is just too tired after busy looking around. He looks into you. He needs some rest. To rest, is to gain more and to walk further.

At times, he may be just absent minded. He could be brainstorming the ideas that flash through his mind, or just imagining things like how to make a paper stands. At times, his mind could be just as messy as his working desk. At times, he may be suddenly clear, just like his favor tracing papers that he uses topping layers of drawing complexities.

What is with the architect?
He has preference of taste. He insists, he sculpts, he does not care the rest.
He has his passion for life. He sees, he loves, he constructs.
When he feels the love to build his family, he promises to try his best to house his loved ones.
Because he believes "it is the duty of every man to raise the character and tone of his own home... to the highest point his capabilities permit." - Frank Lloyd Wright 1894.
And he knows this is not limited to physicality.

What is with the architect?
He never thinks he can be a thorough architect. Because he thinks architecture is about life. And he could never learn enough thoroughly from life. There is too much to learn from life. He is still far from an architect.
He is not an architect.

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睡梦缘分

我这人爱睡。可以的话，每天希望可以睡上9小时。现在假期的我，更可以‘为所欲为’。但也不爱睡到第二天下午，因为我觉得那太浪费时间了。并不是要更多的时间赚钱还是什么，而是觉得可以用那些时间做些有的没的。觉得灵感会偶尔突然来敲门。我不想伊敲门的时候，我在睡觉。而我在外独居的时候，还要做些闲杂家务。所以昏睡并不是我最爱的。

但我爱睡。因为可以很自由。做梦也很自由。某程度上，我爱自由。除了偏爱右侧入睡，就没有什么法则了。睡着后，自由地踢自由地翻最好。所以，我睡觉不穿内裤。穿越少越好越薄越好越自由越好。男生还是通风的好。夏天的话，就没甚问题。冬天的话，依然，只要躲进棉被就很爽。睡觉就是我最任性的时候。因为梦也可以任性到一个程度。

这两日来，在零约束下，做了奇怪的梦。梦见了同一个女生。我善忘，却不想忘记相遇的点点滴滴。如果我忘了，还希望她会在梦里提醒我。前晚，她出现得亲近，想她是关心郁闷的我。我觉得耳根有点热。昨晚，又遇见了，心情激昂的我，叫了她的名字。叫得有点尴尬有点青涩。。才想起，我似乎常遇见，却还没遇见这熟悉的女生。

我才发现，原来缘分才是最任性的。

New Life

I have just moved to this new place. A holiday-house alike kind of home. Visually, this is a very lovely house. And so, i post the lovely pictures up here. Living conditions actually could be meaning more than meeting the eyes. However, this post will be much about the coolness of my place. Telling the goodness will hypnotize oneself to feel good.

I personally like to complain, with or without awareness. However, i can get over it quite quickly. Because i will soon have new other things to complain about. HAHA.. I have learned not to be convicted in negative perception, or i have actually picked up to be complaining transiently, just for the sake of relieving negativity or just making common topics. Well, i have got some nicknames. In office, directors called me Curious Boy. Among some friends, they call me Complain King. I think the best nicknames should be Sweetheart or Darling kind of callings though. ^_^'' . But they should be highly limited to someone deserves to call. Hmm... now i know i am going too far from my topic today... OK, i have got a new living place. New Life began.

The house is located in North Melbourne. The so-far farthest place from the CBD for me since i landed on this big down under island. I plan to get a bike next year. Sitting far, this place has more green, and less dust i hope. But certainly with some fur. I have 2 housemates, Elmo and Oscar. They barked when they saw me, but now no more. And Elmo was committed to crime for kissing me without me saying YES. Well, they are pretty good housemates and i am yet to have further chatting with them. Under the same roof, the landlords are respected as highly conscious and practical environmentalists. They use grey water. They reuse water. They smartly use water. You can see we are actually living in an era that water is precious. Australia should be grateful to have people like them.

Hmm... This is a house with 2 blocks and a garden courtyard in between. My little (actually spacious leh! wahaha~) dwelling room is on upstairs of the rear house. The best physicality about this room is having the built-in robe (at the left side of the pic above. beyond this photos montage. so exaggeratedly reminding you not be able to see it. BIGNESS is the celebration) that is extremely big and i have hidden all my fugly things inside. I call this-- the Art of Ninja. I have to say that i sleep very well for the whole week since the first day here. I am not sure though, if it is because of the comfortably big double bed (as compared to the futon as my previous bed in old house) complimented by the green environment here, or simply i have been too tired of moving house such a BIG project.

I have been spending about 1 week to slowly unpack my millions of stuffs since arrival. 30% was done upon arrival day. Another 30% was done by today. Another 25% will be books and magazines which are yet to be unpacked and put nicely on the black color shelf that you could see from the picture. I will do it tomorrow! And make it looks so much like i am a good and keen reader. No smoking. No pubs. No smoke. Less calories. Less stress. More happiness... But hor.. speaking of reading, shelving the books is all about look. How pathetic! Argh... i actually love picture, love scene, love painting... but not too much of words. Some when from kids to high school time, i loved reading. Now i have many other distraction, good and bad. Well, i will and should try to re-nurture the elegance of reading spirit though! AHAHA~ And i need good books. You all are welcome to suggest nice books! A thankful kiss from the handsome. Muaks~ kaka..

I will yet need to idle around this current place to get its sense and context and SPIRIT! Bless me for living well here. ^_^ .

New Life, here we go!

强吻

搬了新家后，这几天都因 overtime [working+packing+moving+unpacking] 。。。工作后还得来往新旧家，所以每每回到这新家时已经夜晚了。洗澡后，囫囵吃了晚餐不久，就要上床睡觉。因为住得远了，早上又得早起。如此下来，人变得精神不太好。是非常不好的。容易发生意外。因为，我虽然是男生，却也遇上了事故。所以，想说，女生更要照顾好自己。别让自己吃亏了。

今天放工后，有点虚脱+筋疲力尽而直接躺在沙发上。几乎不经一事的时候，突然被我的 housemate- Elmo 压在身上，紧抱着我。就这样被他强吻了。他的吻很热。很有力量。我极力拒绝。我想说，我不是 gay 的。当时却完全没有让我说话的空间。没想到，原以为他看起来书卷气质的样子，却。。。也没想到，一段时间没人吻过我。在这里不过数日，就被强吻了。Elmo，是我这新家主人的狗。不错，是一只感觉书卷味的狗。我想，或许我的嘴唇也有点性感吧。

以前的女友说过觉得我的嘴唇性感，让她觉得看来很好亲的样子。其实，我十撇中没有一撇是沾上性感的墨水。Wikipedia解释是说，那叫--爱屋及乌。讲到吻，让我想不到明确的东西，却感觉到唯美。可是，我天生对吻没有开窍技术可言。会搞到很尴尬。但那种尴尬，回想也是一种美。一些女生似乎‘喜欢’强吻的感觉，很突然的激情。我肯定会将突然的激情煮成突然的尴尬，然后空气中弥漫着停滞的气氛。所以，还是比较喜欢女生强吻我啦。不好意思，这方面，我做被动啦。情场上，常做了主动的傻瓜，所以想做被动的。哼。。嗯。。拜托了凯子，要天生帅/天生强/天生贵的才能有这种无聊的想象咯。。（摇头）我自己跟自己说话，精神分裂。。

不过，可能最近认识了一位开朗的女生朋友，所以正面了许多。而且她笑点低，容易笑。所以很好。羡慕-ing。她说她很长气地说正极能量的好处而觉得她自己很长气。其实她或许不知道，我觉得她很“正气”的。是正的气质。有些人有歪的气质。以前我曾经很容易悲观伤感，而自命清高地给了自己一个名--灰色王子，而且思想角度比较负面。其实，我不想太清高，因为我不想太短命。还有很多我想看到的东西。其实我本质应该是流着热情的血，对生活有一种爱。所以，还是感觉正面地过，日子会好过很多。

像今天，如果让我努力去想，发生了许多零零碎碎的霉事。但那要努力去想，而且不太想起是什么了。因为，脑海中装下了今天小小开心的事。虽然小，只要装了下去，就感觉满满了。所以，笑了。

^__^

I've got the guts

Lately, the whole environment has been fluxed with uncertainties, so has been my life. I am about to move out from my current house. Plus, it has been quite a lot of architects got retrenched in architecture realm. Plus, i am waiting for my PR to be approved here which means my identity here is still in vagueness. Plus, i will go back to Malaysia for the year end holiday. Somehow, it seems to be the safest to stay still for now, to endure the storm of uncertainties. This however may not equal to the best.

Everyone smells it. The smell of worries over finance, employment etc. The smell of recession is strong and so maybe been exaggerated to some extents. The smell of Risk. 危. And who actually sees the opportunity beyond? 机. Safest to be the Still maybe. Risk and potential are tight on each side on a stream line of the Move. I am not sure what step i move may lead me to which side.

I have no ideas. But i have got the guts. I am going to have my holiday that will last for about 7 weeks. Among most of my friends who have freshly graduated (1 year or so experience is still considered as fresh for me) and are/are going to be permanent staffs, i should be the only one of my kind that have the guts to go for such a long holiday at a time like this: 'the economy slump and employment massacre'. I am never a brave person, nor am i smart. And i do not have enough wisdom, despite i have been feeling the wisdom in my teeth for a while already. Nevertheless, my holiday plan just happened to be a pre-conditionally misleaded one and hence needs justified.

My holiday was planned before the economy crisis. AUD currency was strong by then (just to let you imagine that everyone thought the economy and employment here were good by then) . Of course, AUD or whatsoever of that has nothing to do with my plan. My initiative of the holiday plan consists of: C'mas, New Year eve, family gathering and trip before my sisters go back to schools, meeting up with friends, CNY eve, and last but not least, my wisdom teeth operation. I do need some time to have all these done in my holiday.

I am quite looking forward to going back for holiday. Horoscope-ly speaking, a Cancer, like me, does rely and love his shell. After all, it is the shell that has been keeping him safe. He will polish his shell and make it a nice dreamy home for his family.

Well, frankly speaking, some degree of worries does cover my holiday plan. I am not sure if i am still of my company need when i am back to here. Anyway, most likely, i will just stick with the plan. The words from my friend Soma inevitably kept popping in my mind. Roughly, he said something like this: things always go beyond our grasp of control regardless of how foreseeable our plans have been worked out. We can never get the plan we planned. Because things not often work out the ways you hope. So, i guess what i will do is just to try my best to fulfill it. And, move on, with my faith. Faith, for having my plan appropriated to the best i can do, believing it is initiated from good wills.

With faith, we move on.
(also to my buddy CK)

p/s: i love you

I hope i can be a good son
as the best gift i can give for you
Happy Birthday
Daddy

p/s: i love you