先将自己丢掉

看着伊的文字，我从心底笑了出来。
散发着一种自由的气质。
突然发现，伊，有信念，有想法；没有格局，没有形式。
我感觉到伊的心，让人很容易亲近感觉到伊的心。
伊善良，让我看见了伊舒暖宽阔的心境。
伊是如此美丽。

我看着一面镜子。
我，也有信念，有坚持，还有形式。原来，我自己有个框框。
我自己太有一套。

嗯，看来，我得先将自己丢掉。彻底那种。丢掉所有珈琐。
然后放开。
让那自由的心，油然而生。
因为我也想变帅。笑。

重生后，对伊笑着说：
妳有妳的信念
我有我的坚持
这交汇时互放的光彩
没有硝味
因为彼此坚信的
同是自然的感受
坦诚的交流

爱

What is with the Architect?

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Generally, when you hang out with someone who is an architect, do not feel weird that he is always busy looking around. He looks downward into the drainage strips; he looks upward to the ceiling. He uses stupid alien language like authenticity, mezzanine, louvre screen, HVAC [Heating Ventilation and Air Conditioning system], etc. He looks at details, materials, people, buildings, streets, urban corners… totally random they may be. But he may be looking at how people and things proportioning, standing, structuring, connecting, occupying, complimenting, contrasting and intervening each other.

And then, he could just sigh simply for the ridicule failure or the mythical astonishment of how things join, how brilliant talents of some designers endowed, and how shallow himself is. Basically, his eyes are just too keen.

And also, he insists to let something of the background in or out from the photos taken by his camera. He tries to make sure the background and foreground figures fit well into the frame. He tries to capture emotions and light. But he is as not professional as photographer. He is just happy doing that. At times, he is lazy or just snap shots on you with free styles. Because you are good enough to be in his pictures.

And so, you do not need to feel awkward, when he pauses and looks at you. Sometimes he is just too tired after busy looking around. He looks into you. He needs some rest. To rest, is to gain more and to walk further.

At times, he may be just absent minded. He could be brainstorming the ideas that flash through his mind, or just imagining things like how to make a paper stands. At times, his mind could be just as messy as his working desk. At times, he may be suddenly clear, just like his favor tracing papers that he uses topping layers of drawing complexities.

What is with the architect?
He has preference of taste. He insists, he sculpts, he does not care the rest.
He has his passion for life. He sees, he loves, he constructs.
When he feels the love to build his family, he promises to try his best to house his loved ones.
Because he believes "it is the duty of every man to raise the character and tone of his own home... to the highest point his capabilities permit." - Frank Lloyd Wright 1894.
And he knows this is not limited to physicality.

What is with the architect?
He never thinks he can be a thorough architect. Because he thinks architecture is about life. And he could never learn enough thoroughly from life. There is too much to learn from life. He is still far from an architect.
He is not an architect.

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Hairstyle 髪

最近有人问了我一个挺有趣的问题。我喜欢女生长发，还是短发？
如果有看平面漫画的人，应该可以发觉，漫画里角色的发型都是不变的。现实中，人可是会变的。
我想了想，还是做点功夫。[点击小图看大图] 先用孙燕姿的造型图看看极短的发型。从我认为极限的长度说起。很有个性吧。

接下来，我选择了韩女星---李妍喜。比我年轻，却可以百变。她丰富的造型可塑性展示了长短发都有其美，能撑起不同的场面。

回想起来，以前喜欢或欣赏的女生，似乎都是短发的。可爱。活泼。所以，我喜欢的，应该是短发。再想一想，以前中学时期女生都不能留长发嘛。所以这么说似乎不对。现在觉得，短发会将一些人的五官衬托地更特出。看起来变得很有性格。

中学生涯结束后，许多女生似乎都留了长发。许多人变了很多，变美了，有韵味了。温柔。优雅。所以，我喜欢的，应该是长发。。。也不对。因为也有些人其实让长发给掩去了原来脸部好看的特征而不知觉。或让自己为了保留长发，而失去了尝试，为自己设了一个框。

而做这功课的同时，我突然发现，我很爱女生绑发。不同的绑法造型增添了可塑性，让女生呈现更百变的美。爱美，原是女生天赋的权利。我喜欢女生绑发。。或许是因为自己的审美及偏好。因为绑发，露出女生的耳垂。所以如果我有另一半，或许是很自然地。。。我会想轻言密语。轻轻地吻。远看像是咬耳吧。因为绑发，有时露出女生的后颈。我会想从后环抱，轻轻地亲。

电影《功夫》里黄圣依造型虽然留着长发，许多幕都显示她将发丝梳理在耳后。试比一比，原来[左]与加工后[右]的剧照。个人还是喜欢露耳垂的。

哪。。我是喜欢绑发啦？因为可以让我亲亲嘛？想一想，又好象不全对。因为如果没绑发，轻佻的风如果拨乱了她的头发，我会很自然地想帮她理一理秀发。我喜欢这样的举动。因为那一刻的她，是会有让人窒息的美。将她的头发摆弄好，还是会亲下去。

李妍喜多种造型我都看得赏心悦目。因为我喜欢她。
所以，绑发与不，长发与不，伊人依然，美。
原来，只要我喜欢伊，伊人就是美。伊真的很美嘛。
所以我要深呼吸。因为美会很窒息。

嗯。。嗯。。所以，长短发应该是非常个人的决定，表现自己的品味。发型更可以代表个人的性格。而，不同的尝试变化，也能带出新鲜感。我有时喜欢人家给我雪前一亮的新鲜感。或许因为生活很多时候是周而复始。而尝试的过程中，我们发觉原来有些东西并不适合自己。但因为尝试，我们其实在找寻，所以发现。

发现自己。

[Coincidentally, Shravasti Dhammika has posted a blog regarding Hair lately. Something very different to mine, but i believe there is a little similarity as reflection-- it's not about the hair but the persons.]

The Late Compliments

Van Gogh_ The Starry Night

A conversation has led me to think of the compliments that come late.

Van Gogh
A Post-impressionism artist that i like very much. I may not know him and his works very well. But i truly like his paintings, especially The Starry Night. His paintings has a very delicate kind of emotion nourishing the atmosphere even on the side of the viewers. I say, he paints beyond his paper. I personally think he is a romantic artist. Not only they are just simply petrifying for me to look at, his works draw the wings of imagination on me. I know i fly to the moment in his paintings. I admire him. If there is a chance for me to see his exhibition, i would love to go for it. If there is an event bringing the effort to collect his works together for exhibition station by station globally, i would like to contribute with even the slightest possible effort.
He died at the age of 37, due to depression.

Heath Ledger
An impressive actor that i think he has done well for the roles he took. I am not his super fans. Nor have i watched all the movies he had taken part in. But he definitely has done extremely well for the character of Joker in the movie-- The Dark Knight. Weeks ago, there were still controversial debates that, on behalf of him, who is qualified to receive the Prize from 2008 Academy Award and Golden Globe Awards. It is respectful how he has deeply dissolved into a role and from within he created a character that stands out.
He died at the age of 28, due to medication abuse, that many believed depression was the main cause.

The compliments to the above mentioned are late.
Gogh's paintings have got famous after his death. Ledger's movies have gained breaking records after his death too. Both of their talents and contributions have been largely recognized and acknowledged. Having said that.. they wouldn't know.
The late compliments thus become very sentimental.

Shall we pay our salute.
And, shall we look into the issue of depression, more closely, and more concernedly.

It seems like geniuses tend to have depression more likely, though i hope this is just a coincidence. Besides, i have family members who are suffering depression and i know the pain to some extents. It drives people to nuts of how helpless it could be at times. My aunt used to tell me to be living more happily, taking less priority on achievements. She was worried i tend to be using too much brain and also following steps into depression. Now, i would like to stand with people around, and live a good life. I have met someone that embraces so much positiveness so spontaneously. I am encouraged. We all should know, the more positive you stay, the more positive the people around will be influenced by you. Happiness is highly contagious, so is melancholy. You are to decide which side of hand you are lending to. And, be grateful to have friends and family who cheer you up, who concern about you. Life is great!

p/s: i love you.

爱未知 M

《爱未知M》

韩国电影《爱未知M》 。看。是因为她。李妍喜。她有参与演出。是从我巨爱的电影《百万富翁的初恋》喜欢她而接着期待她后来的任何演出。所以看这《M》。是一部毫不偏向大众口味的惊悚电影。不太是鬼片。是爱情和记忆的追溯和追述画面。是艺术片。是美术的剪贴。有褒有贬。据说影片名称“M”是“Mystery（神秘）、Memory（记忆）、Mist （薄雾）和 Melo（爱情）”几个词的合体。

主角因事故而回避了世故，压抑了回忆，失去了，忘了，迷惑了，重遇了，追溯了，追随了。。。
看这《M》。才认识了这导演。李明世。无可非议的，他的拍摄中对光影的掌握已达到炉火纯青的境界。光和影是互补的元素，是画面的灵魂。喜欢美术的人，可以看一看。对戏里唯美的画面确实有惊叹的欣赏。导演用独到的画面承接启后手法，来叙述委婉扭转的故事。戏里看到了导演的自我风格与其理想的坚持。不沦落在跟世俗商业化的潮流。看到了一些不错的意境和自身记忆的潜探。这导演的一些拍摄也有一点王家卫的影子。有每每重复但细细差异的画面。个人觉得，他拍摄镜头的美术感高很多。但王家卫的故事比较栩栩流畅。只能说，李明世或许不是个会讲故事的人，是个画家。就好象，有些天才不会教人；有些好教师不是天才。

或许是导演的坚持，这电影似乎也太着重于画面形式。可以说，戏里画面的视觉转接极度流畅，内容却在画面承接中断断续续流失了原本足以感动观众的故事灵魂。所以造成可惜和遗憾。也或许在没有意识下，导演的拍摄作风坚持下，对演员的演出造成了局限性。浪费了原本可以演绎很好的演员。李妍喜虽然年轻，表现还有些嫩，但却有着细腻的投入演绎，多方面的角色性和丰富表情。她处女作《百万富翁的初恋》的导演就是慧眼发掘而将她的潜质发挥得淋漓尽致。虽然那电影剧情简单，却是有欢笑有泪水的必看小品。

《百万富翁的初恋》

如果将《爱未知 M》待为一个艺术展或一本像簿，简单地，在意境，诗意，梦幻，回忆，节奏，灵魂的影像画面中，欣赏，摸索，品味，重组，剪接和合奏，确实是个不错的体会。

对我而言，《M》也似乎隐喻了《Me》--我。自我。自我的寻找。自我的发掘。自我的风格。自我。却不过甚的自我。自我的拿捏。我。[me]。[kai]。

依悉记得，有人说过：人生，其实是死亡的开始。换句话说，人生的过程，就是怎样死去。其实，死，或轻于鸿毛，或重于泰山。过程中，在于怎么实实在在地充实自己，让自己走过的步伐翩出美丽的地图。我的人生中，还在寻找着我的舞台。我或许偶尔很自我。但我有时感觉体内有一股时静时劲的色彩，欲在空虚的天空中，找到合适的舞台，画下缤纷的彩虹。

茫茫人海里，爱未知。人生里，有不少时候也过得很混/浑/昏。今年来，事事似乎都不太如意。工作上，也还没有真正找到感觉，时常有不甘愿于斯的感觉。看来是要经过一番失意挫败的。所以，人生里，我还要加把劲。
“天降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行指乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。”
这句话真好。真好引。叹气完了，就要振作振作振作！！！
（不好意思，抄来自勉了 ^0^）

Bruce|| "Why do we fall"
Alfred|| "So that we learn to pick ourselves up"
Bruce|| "You still haven't given up on me"
Alfred|| "Never"
(The movie_ Batman Begins)
(嗯。。 来而不往，非理也。 ^_^）

Beauty Entrapment 粉红陷阱

I have been really bad in managing a love relationship. I am not talented in that. Neither do i have the skill to ignite it.

I knew femme fatale and 红颜祸水 these phrases. I was also convinced when i read the novels of my favorite novelist Jin Yong. I actually do not blame any sad things, nor do i push the responsibility of any sad cases to women. What i am bring up here, is just about Love. Love, that i am still far to understand and be blessed of.

(National Library of Australia. Library, an emblem of wisdom.)

We knew love is a glass of intoxicating wine, a trap full of thorns, a blind of bliss, a swamp of tears. We knew. We have knowledge. But wisdom does not bring you along safely. Because it does not help here, or simply we need more of it in love, or love management if you would like to say. Maths does not work in here too, because asymmetrical formula is already a bonus in a relationship compared to nothing.

But why did i still fall into the trap even if it is forecasted with warnings? I think because love weaves dreams. And it is particularly appealing to a dreamer like me. I don't really care if the beautiful dream is promising. This should be the greatest dilemma for an intrinsic beauty lover like me.

Because of the dream for passion and bliss of love, i risk myself to fall in love, to indulge and get indulged. Love, is powerful, isn't it. I braved myself once and once again, with attempts to love that someone i love and earnest to get a true love. I closed my eyes and jumped on the bed of roses. I forgot there are thorns.

I bleed. I finally knew i am still yet to be ready for a true love, maybe. Because i just swam over the swamp of tears, and now 'sunbathing' in shadow darkness.

refer:
femme fatale
Jin Yong

Richard Green

Richard Green, could be an unfamiliar name to many. You may possibly get the different guy Richard Greene (with an 'e' behind) who was a screen star in "The Adventure of Robin Hood" if you try 'google' it.

I went to Canberra to renew my passport 2 weeks ago and saved the chance for wandering around. There, i bumped into National Library of Australia. In a small exhibition space provided there, i got to know the name-- Richard Green.

Richard Green. A landscape photographer. Unlike many of the art pieces in exhibition, his photographs are simply straightforward, bold, and simple. Not abstract. Not vague. Simply breathtaking.

(His photographs stand the most only when you are in the exhibition looking at the real size pieces.)

His photographs are mainly of wild places of this big "down-under" island-- Australia. Some of his photographs take up to some lengths beyond 2 metres. They were taken with high resolution of camera, high ambient spectrum of richest colors, and the very spirit of the places. He insists to take the photos with the best positions regardless of the piling attempts of visits to a place at different times, difficult standing points at the cliff of mountains or the edge of waterfall rocks or in the wet swamp, just to capture the best timing, weather and the sense of place with his lens. His extraordinarily huge photographs give strong impact from far-away sight and also delicately depict every single details of the landscape, the life on it, the coverage of the shadow, and even his own shadow among the trees that takes up only maybe about 0.2% of the overall photo size.

What i am impressed about his works and his passionate insistence is somewhat behind his lens-- his philosophy and intention of his artworks. From his photography, life on the earth seems to be extremely small, inter-relying and precious. "You only live once", is what came into your mind looking on the artworks. Nature, is the art itself. And most of his photographs were taken in dawn or sunset time of which the best timing for the richest colors from the atmosphere is hence ultimately transient. Naturally, people tend to think and feel the most at the times of dawn and sunsets because of the awareness and sense of time.

From his photographs, Richard Green illustrate how life is transient, beautiful, strong and yet fragile on the seemingly tough but emotional earth. It comes also with the urge to seriously look into the very inch of our environment, what we have been doing and should be doing.


When you look into his photographs, you look at the places, you hear the chirping sound, you feel the cooling breeze, you smell the wet earth. You are simply overwhelmed.


p/s 1:
Richard Green: Wild Places 27 August – 27 September 2008
Byron McMahon Gallery, 88 George Street Redfern, Sydney
Open Wednesday – Saturday 11- 5pm, www.byronmcmahongallery.com.au
(Click here for PDF Source)
(and here for The Sydney Morning Herald news page)

p/s 2: He uses Canon EOS 1Ds digital camera equipment. I insist to use Canon cameras too though i am not as professional. I love the colors from Canon lenses. Sony is too supernatural, Panasonic is too digital, Nikon is too conservative. BUT, of course, it is more about the users, not the tools. Strong heart leads the light.