New Life

I have just moved to this new place. A holiday-house alike kind of home. Visually, this is a very lovely house. And so, i post the lovely pictures up here. Living conditions actually could be meaning more than meeting the eyes. However, this post will be much about the coolness of my place. Telling the goodness will hypnotize oneself to feel good.

I personally like to complain, with or without awareness. However, i can get over it quite quickly. Because i will soon have new other things to complain about. HAHA.. I have learned not to be convicted in negative perception, or i have actually picked up to be complaining transiently, just for the sake of relieving negativity or just making common topics. Well, i have got some nicknames. In office, directors called me Curious Boy. Among some friends, they call me Complain King. I think the best nicknames should be Sweetheart or Darling kind of callings though. ^_^'' . But they should be highly limited to someone deserves to call. Hmm... now i know i am going too far from my topic today... OK, i have got a new living place. New Life began.

The house is located in North Melbourne. The so-far farthest place from the CBD for me since i landed on this big down under island. I plan to get a bike next year. Sitting far, this place has more green, and less dust i hope. But certainly with some fur. I have 2 housemates, Elmo and Oscar. They barked when they saw me, but now no more. And Elmo was committed to crime for kissing me without me saying YES. Well, they are pretty good housemates and i am yet to have further chatting with them. Under the same roof, the landlords are respected as highly conscious and practical environmentalists. They use grey water. They reuse water. They smartly use water. You can see we are actually living in an era that water is precious. Australia should be grateful to have people like them.

Hmm... This is a house with 2 blocks and a garden courtyard in between. My little (actually spacious leh! wahaha~) dwelling room is on upstairs of the rear house. The best physicality about this room is having the built-in robe (at the left side of the pic above. beyond this photos montage. so exaggeratedly reminding you not be able to see it. BIGNESS is the celebration) that is extremely big and i have hidden all my fugly things inside. I call this-- the Art of Ninja. I have to say that i sleep very well for the whole week since the first day here. I am not sure though, if it is because of the comfortably big double bed (as compared to the futon as my previous bed in old house) complimented by the green environment here, or simply i have been too tired of moving house such a BIG project.

I have been spending about 1 week to slowly unpack my millions of stuffs since arrival. 30% was done upon arrival day. Another 30% was done by today. Another 25% will be books and magazines which are yet to be unpacked and put nicely on the black color shelf that you could see from the picture. I will do it tomorrow! And make it looks so much like i am a good and keen reader. No smoking. No pubs. No smoke. Less calories. Less stress. More happiness... But hor.. speaking of reading, shelving the books is all about look. How pathetic! Argh... i actually love picture, love scene, love painting... but not too much of words. Some when from kids to high school time, i loved reading. Now i have many other distraction, good and bad. Well, i will and should try to re-nurture the elegance of reading spirit though! AHAHA~ And i need good books. You all are welcome to suggest nice books! A thankful kiss from the handsome. Muaks~ kaka..

I will yet need to idle around this current place to get its sense and context and SPIRIT! Bless me for living well here. ^_^ .

New Life, here we go!

强吻

搬了新家后，这几天都因 overtime [working+packing+moving+unpacking] 。。。工作后还得来往新旧家，所以每每回到这新家时已经夜晚了。洗澡后，囫囵吃了晚餐不久，就要上床睡觉。因为住得远了，早上又得早起。如此下来，人变得精神不太好。是非常不好的。容易发生意外。因为，我虽然是男生，却也遇上了事故。所以，想说，女生更要照顾好自己。别让自己吃亏了。

今天放工后，有点虚脱+筋疲力尽而直接躺在沙发上。几乎不经一事的时候，突然被我的 housemate- Elmo 压在身上，紧抱着我。就这样被他强吻了。他的吻很热。很有力量。我极力拒绝。我想说，我不是 gay 的。当时却完全没有让我说话的空间。没想到，原以为他看起来书卷气质的样子，却。。。也没想到，一段时间没人吻过我。在这里不过数日，就被强吻了。Elmo，是我这新家主人的狗。不错，是一只感觉书卷味的狗。我想，或许我的嘴唇也有点性感吧。

以前的女友说过觉得我的嘴唇性感，让她觉得看来很好亲的样子。其实，我十撇中没有一撇是沾上性感的墨水。Wikipedia解释是说，那叫--爱屋及乌。讲到吻，让我想不到明确的东西，却感觉到唯美。可是，我天生对吻没有开窍技术可言。会搞到很尴尬。但那种尴尬，回想也是一种美。一些女生似乎‘喜欢’强吻的感觉，很突然的激情。我肯定会将突然的激情煮成突然的尴尬，然后空气中弥漫着停滞的气氛。所以，还是比较喜欢女生强吻我啦。不好意思，这方面，我做被动啦。情场上，常做了主动的傻瓜，所以想做被动的。哼。。嗯。。拜托了凯子，要天生帅/天生强/天生贵的才能有这种无聊的想象咯。。（摇头）我自己跟自己说话，精神分裂。。

不过，可能最近认识了一位开朗的女生朋友，所以正面了许多。而且她笑点低，容易笑。所以很好。羡慕-ing。她说她很长气地说正极能量的好处而觉得她自己很长气。其实她或许不知道，我觉得她很“正气”的。是正的气质。有些人有歪的气质。以前我曾经很容易悲观伤感，而自命清高地给了自己一个名--灰色王子，而且思想角度比较负面。其实，我不想太清高，因为我不想太短命。还有很多我想看到的东西。其实我本质应该是流着热情的血，对生活有一种爱。所以，还是感觉正面地过，日子会好过很多。

像今天，如果让我努力去想，发生了许多零零碎碎的霉事。但那要努力去想，而且不太想起是什么了。因为，脑海中装下了今天小小开心的事。虽然小，只要装了下去，就感觉满满了。所以，笑了。

^__^

最

zo mo 我还在这里。。 ok ok。。我只是很想说。。
搬家收拾是很闷的。

嗯。。突发其想。。

最闷的工作： 搬家收拾
最无中生有的： 作家
最盲目的： 爱人
最不踏实的： 飞机师
最不诚实的： 政治家
最强（牵强也可以）最可以解释任何事情的答案： Global Warming**
最pekcek的： 找不到工作又没钱又得交房租 (w.wen)
最惡毒的: 隔壁家的安娣 (c.hung)
讲最多的：老师 (s.kuan)


最。。。

（有趣的话，请大家努力帮忙写一写你想到的。最好是让人意想不到的。
make a list of 'occupations' below. and i will collect your contribution and then compile into a list! see how far it could go. ^_^）
（谢谢参与 ^_^）

**注解：
eg: “找不到工作又没钱又得交房租” “很痛苦，都是 global warming 的错” 保佑保佑
eg: “global recession...” “because of global warming...” 保佑保佑
eg: “我又浪费时间了” “不要跟我讲，又是 global warming 的错” 保佑保佑
eg: “我的 ice cream 溶 liao..” “global warming lo..” 吃快一点就ok啦

zo mo

其实现在应该忙于收拾东西。。。但我觉得很闷很无聊。所以来这里溜荡一两下。

最近下了一些雨。夏天突然放飞机，早了报道，现在却要迟到。雨后。雨后，如果你放宽视野放大角度去看这个世界，亮丽地，清新地，通常会有彩虹。雨后，如果你将自己含蓄地蹲在一角，细腻地，缓慢地，你会看到这世上小小且毫不起眼的生物。像山洪像海啸的雨后，蚂蚁开始爬出洞，蚯蚓开始探出头来。

这几天偶尔有些东西灵感像蘑菇一样在发霉的脑海一片一片冒出来。但Mario 没有跳过来採。可能空中的浮砖太高了。所以没有在这里写一些心里脑里突然的一些遐想。有时候那些突然的时候其实很多时候会突然神来一笔的。是有墨水有颜料可以在这里写写画画的。毕竟我会一点山水画。这种时候最适合。如果心情有点激烈，再被人家或事物或天意加了点油醋的话，就适合来幅烈火雄心的油画。不过，没有很对的心情在很对的时间啦。所以或许就浪费了那些雨后蘑菇。没办法啦，没有宣纸怎么来幅山水画，我不能像星爷在唐伯虎點秋香那里那样画啊。

所以啊。。。所以我说，还是要心不甘情不愿地继续收拾。有点感叹。又要搬家了。我挺喜欢这一带住处的环境。很不错的。附近也有绿绿的草原公园，高高的树，怡人的景，怡人的人，怡人的建筑。有空放一两张照片让大家看看啦。我喜欢在天气好的时候，在那里慢跑步。然后躺在草地上。睁开眼，蓝空配白云，绝对的高调地在说情话。闭上眼，感觉暖暖的斜射阳光，轻轻地听听加嗅嗅加深呼吸。呼出的是负能量。将头往右转，画面是90度的，由上而下铺的绿地，横长的树干，情侣在相吻拥抱，有情不怕90度掉下去的。将头往左转，画面是-90度的，什么时候博物馆是横着建起的，一群群玩耍的小朋友在追逐在玩球，有青春也是不怕地心引力的。牛顿一定超无奈大家没将他的一番定律放在眼里，因为都在课本里。继续躺着躺着。。。

喔，大便，是了，我还要继续收拾。。。还是懒一下好leh。。。真不好意思让人家给我加油后我还在这边闲言碎语蹉跎岁月。
zomo要酱子。。。努力努力加油加油！！卍解


(卍解注解)

钱不够用

看了新加坡电影《钱不够用II》。看到关于妈妈的片段，很感动。我哭了。是的，是哭泣。让我掉眼泪的电影不多。让我哭得抽噎的电影更不多。电影里画面拍摄极其平凡。用了最简单直接的方式表达了大众的生活。最直接的感动。最见效。也反映了许多大部分人的生活，现实的残酷。很教育性。戏里虽然有一些并不需要的电脑元素和赞助味道，但无伤大雅，没有影响大纲。

电影导演梁智强展示了一贯作风，这次传达了精神层次更多的理念。值得一提的是演老妈妈角色的马来西亚演员--黎明。小时候就看多她演的戏了。这次的她，演活了mother的角色，牵动了观众的心。让我因为她掉了许多眼泪。有一幕她回头望的时候，我的心被紧紧地楸着。。。 另外，自己喜欢戏里的赖怡伶，很漂亮动人，有着我见犹怜的气质，愿意为爱和家牺牲的小女人。如果有妻如此，何需他求。妳的手，我会牵紧紧。（嗯。。本人善于被感动+幻想。。牌写。。）

钱不够用，是极度烦恼的。比没钱更穷的时候，是更可悲的。穷了心志。穷了灵魂。穷了道德。成了彻底的穷鬼，是让人伤心的。《艺妓》里说了一句话：“有钱的并非最富裕，情才是福”


电影里用了歌曲-- 江蕙 《家后》 (Internet Explorer / Safari is needed)
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我就要开始收拾清理了，然后搬家，然后再收拾清理。会有一段忙的日子。最想要的房子拿不到。或许冥冥中自有安排。有不甘愿命运如斯，却也安然接纳。因为我也尽力了。觉得钱不够用。也努力着。只要一直有尽心尽力做好自己，就有继续加油走下去的力量。

Mates. Let's move on. Hand in hand. ^_^
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“钱不够用2″mother入围金马奖

点击这里看一些电影简介和更多观众给予感动后的评语。我没在这里多讲，因为或许还有一些人还没看却想看的。

vain

At times, i think of you, dream of you, and miss you.

At times, i think i am not designed for loving people. A bad lover i am.

I know you love chocolate.
Dove Chocolate has a quote:"love is an understanding between you and your favourite flavour."

I know what is my flavour. But i am bad in comprehending things. Understanding, to me, is not of one side, but two. Management and coordination are the flesh and blood in Understanding.

Hello.. how have you been, dear? Should i still call you dear? Can i?
Thank you.. to have stepped into my life.
And sorry..
What else can i do?
..

There are rather... fragments here. Fragments.. of memories.. of feel.. of self..

I do not know the meaning of this post.

Maybe, simply, i miss you.

I've got the guts

Lately, the whole environment has been fluxed with uncertainties, so has been my life. I am about to move out from my current house. Plus, it has been quite a lot of architects got retrenched in architecture realm. Plus, i am waiting for my PR to be approved here which means my identity here is still in vagueness. Plus, i will go back to Malaysia for the year end holiday. Somehow, it seems to be the safest to stay still for now, to endure the storm of uncertainties. This however may not equal to the best.

Everyone smells it. The smell of worries over finance, employment etc. The smell of recession is strong and so maybe been exaggerated to some extents. The smell of Risk. 危. And who actually sees the opportunity beyond? 机. Safest to be the Still maybe. Risk and potential are tight on each side on a stream line of the Move. I am not sure what step i move may lead me to which side.

I have no ideas. But i have got the guts. I am going to have my holiday that will last for about 7 weeks. Among most of my friends who have freshly graduated (1 year or so experience is still considered as fresh for me) and are/are going to be permanent staffs, i should be the only one of my kind that have the guts to go for such a long holiday at a time like this: 'the economy slump and employment massacre'. I am never a brave person, nor am i smart. And i do not have enough wisdom, despite i have been feeling the wisdom in my teeth for a while already. Nevertheless, my holiday plan just happened to be a pre-conditionally misleaded one and hence needs justified.

My holiday was planned before the economy crisis. AUD currency was strong by then (just to let you imagine that everyone thought the economy and employment here were good by then) . Of course, AUD or whatsoever of that has nothing to do with my plan. My initiative of the holiday plan consists of: C'mas, New Year eve, family gathering and trip before my sisters go back to schools, meeting up with friends, CNY eve, and last but not least, my wisdom teeth operation. I do need some time to have all these done in my holiday.

I am quite looking forward to going back for holiday. Horoscope-ly speaking, a Cancer, like me, does rely and love his shell. After all, it is the shell that has been keeping him safe. He will polish his shell and make it a nice dreamy home for his family.

Well, frankly speaking, some degree of worries does cover my holiday plan. I am not sure if i am still of my company need when i am back to here. Anyway, most likely, i will just stick with the plan. The words from my friend Soma inevitably kept popping in my mind. Roughly, he said something like this: things always go beyond our grasp of control regardless of how foreseeable our plans have been worked out. We can never get the plan we planned. Because things not often work out the ways you hope. So, i guess what i will do is just to try my best to fulfill it. And, move on, with my faith. Faith, for having my plan appropriated to the best i can do, believing it is initiated from good wills.

With faith, we move on.
(also to my buddy CK)

是谁

昨晚睡梦中
是谁轻吻了我的脸颊
若有若无的呵气
淡淡的香味
徘徊在衣领上
弥漫在薄凉夜风中

爱未知 M

《爱未知M》

韩国电影《爱未知M》 。看。是因为她。李妍喜。她有参与演出。是从我巨爱的电影《百万富翁的初恋》喜欢她而接着期待她后来的任何演出。所以看这《M》。是一部毫不偏向大众口味的惊悚电影。不太是鬼片。是爱情和记忆的追溯和追述画面。是艺术片。是美术的剪贴。有褒有贬。据说影片名称“M”是“Mystery（神秘）、Memory（记忆）、Mist （薄雾）和 Melo（爱情）”几个词的合体。

主角因事故而回避了世故，压抑了回忆，失去了，忘了，迷惑了，重遇了，追溯了，追随了。。。
看这《M》。才认识了这导演。李明世。无可非议的，他的拍摄中对光影的掌握已达到炉火纯青的境界。光和影是互补的元素，是画面的灵魂。喜欢美术的人，可以看一看。对戏里唯美的画面确实有惊叹的欣赏。导演用独到的画面承接启后手法，来叙述委婉扭转的故事。戏里看到了导演的自我风格与其理想的坚持。不沦落在跟世俗商业化的潮流。看到了一些不错的意境和自身记忆的潜探。这导演的一些拍摄也有一点王家卫的影子。有每每重复但细细差异的画面。个人觉得，他拍摄镜头的美术感高很多。但王家卫的故事比较栩栩流畅。只能说，李明世或许不是个会讲故事的人，是个画家。就好象，有些天才不会教人；有些好教师不是天才。

或许是导演的坚持，这电影似乎也太着重于画面形式。可以说，戏里画面的视觉转接极度流畅，内容却在画面承接中断断续续流失了原本足以感动观众的故事灵魂。所以造成可惜和遗憾。也或许在没有意识下，导演的拍摄作风坚持下，对演员的演出造成了局限性。浪费了原本可以演绎很好的演员。李妍喜虽然年轻，表现还有些嫩，但却有着细腻的投入演绎，多方面的角色性和丰富表情。她处女作《百万富翁的初恋》的导演就是慧眼发掘而将她的潜质发挥得淋漓尽致。虽然那电影剧情简单，却是有欢笑有泪水的必看小品。

《百万富翁的初恋》

如果将《爱未知 M》待为一个艺术展或一本像簿，简单地，在意境，诗意，梦幻，回忆，节奏，灵魂的影像画面中，欣赏，摸索，品味，重组，剪接和合奏，确实是个不错的体会。

对我而言，《M》也似乎隐喻了《Me》--我。自我。自我的寻找。自我的发掘。自我的风格。自我。却不过甚的自我。自我的拿捏。我。[me]。[kai]。

依悉记得，有人说过：人生，其实是死亡的开始。换句话说，人生的过程，就是怎样死去。其实，死，或轻于鸿毛，或重于泰山。过程中，在于怎么实实在在地充实自己，让自己走过的步伐翩出美丽的地图。我的人生中，还在寻找着我的舞台。我或许偶尔很自我。但我有时感觉体内有一股时静时劲的色彩，欲在空虚的天空中，找到合适的舞台，画下缤纷的彩虹。

茫茫人海里，爱未知。人生里，有不少时候也过得很混/浑/昏。今年来，事事似乎都不太如意。工作上，也还没有真正找到感觉，时常有不甘愿于斯的感觉。看来是要经过一番失意挫败的。所以，人生里，我还要加把劲。
“天降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行指乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。”
这句话真好。真好引。叹气完了，就要振作振作振作！！！
（不好意思，抄来自勉了 ^0^）

Bruce|| "Why do we fall"
Alfred|| "So that we learn to pick ourselves up"
Bruce|| "You still haven't given up on me"
Alfred|| "Never"
(The movie_ Batman Begins)
(嗯。。 来而不往，非理也。 ^_^）